Sometimes there's too many things going inside my head.

It feels like the lights that blinking along the New York Times Square.

And sometimes, I feel like turning it off.

With a blink of eye, let it be dark and all black.



Like a chloroform, it all buried at once whenever I feel like to shut it off.

No sound, no noise, no lights.

I will let my brain rest from all of the thoughts.



In the dark, I left a little light with me.

It binds me with the promise

Once I finished the rest, I have to turn on all of the lights again.



It's like the one little light give me hope.

It embraces me with spirits.

It's just a little light.

But it is the one that give the biggest impulse to me.



Dear you,

If you read this,

I just want you to know,

You are the little light that shine out of me.

Stay gold.




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Sometimes when I feel like giving up,

It makes a lot of pressure to me.

There's a lot of things that seems so hard and so unclear,

I feel like not being myself,

I feel strange.

I feel like I didn't want to do this anymore,

I cried, I feel angry with myself, I feel broken.

I failed.


But on the other side,

I know.

If I give up now, all of this tears and madness would be useless.

Otherwise,

If I choose to get up now, all of this tears and shit will going to be worth one day.

And yes, it's true.

Because that's just how things work — it's our choice.

To be patient, or to be fragile as glass.



It doesn't matter how many times you fall,
Because what matters is how many times you get up, and get going.



And today,
I choose to get up.
Again.


Because I don't want all of this shit just being shit.
It has to be worth, one day.



Failure doesn't break us,
It makes us stronger.