In this past year I've learned that there's so many kind of people and way of thinking.
Every people you met has their own perspective in things that you can't change,
yet each of them are unique in their own way.

Every time this thing came across my mind,
Every now and again, I feel so thankful.

In this whole world full of people and way of thinking,
I know a bunch of people that appreciate what I am doing right now,
Appreciate my works,
Appreciate my existence.

Even though sometimes, their way of thinking is different with mine.
But still, they do appreciate.
They are the people who makes me feel alive,
the people who makes me feel thankful for this life.


Once again, thank you.


both image via tumblr.

Neptunus

Menyadari Kugy yang ada di dekatnya, Keenan pun menoleh. 

Mendapatkan Kugy yang samar diterangi cahaya langit, tersenyum padanya.

Di matanya, keindahan pagi yang sejak tadi ia nikmati tiba-tiba memperoleh saingan.



"Kugy, Kecil, mau nggak kamu nulis dongeng lagi?"

Kugy menelan ludah. "Aku mau, asal kamu mau melukis lagi."

"Aku mau. Demi Pilik," bisik Keenan. Demi kamu.

"Demi Pilik," Kugy balas berbisik. Dan demi kamu.


— Dee Lestari, Perahu Kertas (2009)

Currently Listening to

"Di dalam hidup ada saat untuk berhati – hati atau berhenti berlari / Tawamu lepas dan tangis kau redam di dalam mimpi yang kau simpan sendiri / Sumpah serapah yang kau ucap tak kembali / Tak kembali / Semua harap yang terucap akan kembali / Akan kembali / Saat kau menerima dirimu dan berdamai dengan itu / Kau menari dengan waktu tanpa ragu yang membelenggu."

—

On the last few days I keep on replaying Taifun album by BARASUARA.

The first time I heard it, I was really amazed. 

Its music and lyrics are beyond beautiful, 

I am so thankful to God Indonesia has a lot of talented local bands.

I have no much words to describe this album, 

the pieces of my heart flew away with all of the words

everytime I heard the songs.

For those who haven't heard Taifun album yet, 

I really recommend you to catch a listen really soon.

You won't regret it, I promise.

Huge greetings to Indonesia creative industries.

Sometimes there's too many things going inside my head.

It feels like the lights that blinking along the New York Times Square.

And sometimes, I feel like turning it off.

With a blink of eye, let it be dark and all black.



Like a chloroform, it all buried at once whenever I feel like to shut it off.

No sound, no noise, no lights.

I will let my brain rest from all of the thoughts.



In the dark, I left a little light with me.

It binds me with the promise

Once I finished the rest, I have to turn on all of the lights again.



It's like the one little light give me hope.

It embraces me with spirits.

It's just a little light.

But it is the one that give the biggest impulse to me.



Dear you,

If you read this,

I just want you to know,

You are the little light that shine out of me.

Stay gold.




image taken from picslist.com

Sometimes when I feel like giving up,

It makes a lot of pressure to me.

There's a lot of things that seems so hard and so unclear,

I feel like not being myself,

I feel strange.

I feel like I didn't want to do this anymore,

I cried, I feel angry with myself, I feel broken.

I failed.


But on the other side,

I know.

If I give up now, all of this tears and madness would be useless.

Otherwise,

If I choose to get up now, all of this tears and shit will going to be worth one day.

And yes, it's true.

Because that's just how things work — it's our choice.

To be patient, or to be fragile as glass.



It doesn't matter how many times you fall,
Because what matters is how many times you get up, and get going.



And today,
I choose to get up.
Again.


Because I don't want all of this shit just being shit.
It has to be worth, one day.



Failure doesn't break us,
It makes us stronger.

I'm in between a thousand of happy days.

I hope these days would last forever.

Thank you, Allah.

Movie Crush: God Help the Girl

This movie was totally change my mind. Saya akan mengoceh banyak tentang film ini dan segala hal yang saya suka tentangnya -- yang pada dasarnya saya menyukai hampir keseluruhannya. Setelah melihat beberapa review di Mubi dan majalah, saya tertarik untuk coba menonton film yang satu ini. Dan benar-benar sesuai harapan, bahkan lebih! 

Hal pertama yang paling menarik hati saya adalah bagaimana si tokoh utama, Eve mencocokkan bajunya dengan outer dan sepatu yang tepat. Beberapa ini adalah outfit Eve favorit saya. Kardigan dan dress besar, jaket denim, kemeja dan celana berwarna khaki, gelang-gelang, sepatu dan kaos kaki, dan banyak lagi! 

Selain outfit Eve, kepribadian dan gayanya juga cukup menginspirasi. Saya dapat merasakan bagaimana si aktris sangat berbakat dalam peran Eve yang ia jalani, sehingga mencerminkan bahwa Eve adalah seorang perempuan yang cuek dan merasa sangat nyaman dengan menjadi dirinya sendiri.

tape and vinyl record -- my favourites

Sepanjang film berjalan, Eve selalu mengingatkan saya akan si manis Lauren Mayberry--lead singer band elektronik CHVRCHES. Terlebih lagi saat ia mulai bernyanyi. Mereka memiliki banyak kesamaan dan saya suka itu. Mulai dari poni dan gaya rambut, gerak-gerik saat menari dan bernyanyi, sampai garis eyeliner mereka. And because of her, I decided to chop-chop my hair to a bang. 

Musik dan efek warna kekuningan yang mewarnai film ini juga menjadi favorit saya. Selain filmnya, saya pun jatuh cinta dengan soundtrack dari God Help the Girl ini. Over all, buat saya cerita dan segalanya sangat menarik. All I can say is, this movie sucessfully steals my heart.

Saya percaya,
suatu hari nanti,
diri saya akan sangat berterima kasih akan apa yang sudah saya lakukan sekarang

semua peluh,
tangis,
jatuh dan bangkit,
suatu hari nanti,
diri saya akan sangat berterima kasih akan semua itu

pasti.